Well, today was relaxing. An extended class of Arabic in the morning, a little rest, a little visit to the south side with a friend, and then back home to relax and prepare for the holiday. Thanksgiving is very close, and I hope everyone has a good one coming to them.
Well, today I battled a physical anxiety attack. Yes, for all those who don't know, I have anxiety. Tonight, it came in physical form, creating nausea. But I fought it off very quickly today which I am proud of. I'm starting to learn how to control the physical aspect of my anxiety.
Anyone else have anxiety? It comes to me emotionally and physically at times, but it's being controlled. But doesn't it suck to just feel it? It's annoying and sometimes frightening, but it's just a part of life. It's not a weakness, which I think a lot of people sometimes think it is. What with all the pills floating around that make us "happier". Though, I believe, in some cases they work, I'm not a fan of hearing that 27 million people in the USA are on them as of 2009 (done by a poll featured in USA Today in 2009). I'm not saying I'm against people who need it, but it is being abused by others in the country, which I feel like is not needed. Oh well, that's my little rant on it.
Anxiety sucks, but it can also be fought, and I'm glad I'm able to fight it and I hope everyone else there will be able to as well. Social, emotional, and physical anxiety suck, it's true. But it's life, and it's something worth fighting : )
I've been feeling great these past few days, and I'm glad things are looking up a little bit more. Even the little moments, like just sitting at the apartment hanging with my roommate and watching Heroes. I live for the little things too, they bring good memories. Even just walking around the city today, I felt alive, and it's a great feeling.
new Pipettes album
I bought the new Pipettes album today, which I'm really excited to listen to! If you don't know them, you should definitely check them out! They are a British indie pop group and they really make good music. I first heard about them when I was in Citywalk at Universal Studios in L.A. when I lived there during a summer. I was having lunch somewhere there and next to us outside was a big jumbotron playing music videos. One of those videos was "Your Kisses Are Wasted On Me" by The Pipettes. When I heard it, it really caught my attention and I really enjoyed listening to it. I decided to find out more of them and I bought their album "We Are The Pipettes" with that song and others on it that are amazing, and it's a band I really truly enjoy! Don't hate on me because I like a girls group, they are really good!! Though more recently they have gone through some line up changes, they have just came out with their second album "Earth vs. The Pipettes" which I picked up today at Reckless Records on Madison Avenue (check it out if you have never been there, it's really amazing!) and plan on listening to it very soon! Check out their website and some of their music videos (one which is the Video of the Day), which are on Youtube. So yeah, check it out! They really are awesome and have a unique quality to their music that you don't hear so much these days. That's The Pipettes!
SONG OF THE DAY: "Fire and Regeneration" by Wendy and Lisa feat. Shenkar
From the "Heroes" soundtrack! Beautiful orchestration. You're sure to find it on Youtube! In a Heroes mood tonight.
Well, that's all I have for now! Don't forget to check out the Video of the Day! I'll see ya when I see ya!
As you may know from my last post, I'm trying to get things back together and face my demons. Well, today proved a success!
I confronted my biggest emotional fear today, and boy did it feel great. This person I talked to was someone I thought I would honestly never talk to ever again in my life, as much as part of me really wanted to. But today, I had the rare chance to and, after 8 months, I finally talked to this person, and there was no tension in the air, and I felt a real weight lifted from my chest. I can't lie and say I'm not a little confused or that I got to say what I really wanted to say or say how I feel/felt, but I must remember...little steps. And boy, though this was a little step, it was also a VERY BIG leap, and I'm very proud of myself today. Especially since it had the chance of going very very badly. But it didn't, so yay!
I have improved myself a little today, and a little is still something, and I feel like I'm getting better. Onward and up to recovery!!
Well, it's getting late here so I'm not going to do much today. It's been kind of a long day, and some sleep will do me good (it's 2:26 in the morning now haha). But what I will do is reveal the final part of THE LOST POEMS. Enjoy!:
Midnight Adventure by Dave Karp
Looking out at the horizon late at night the stars shining down on me like spotlights mothing but the wind filling my ears The wind that has been here for so many years
"What's to come next" sings a bird through a song
knowing this nighttime would not last for long
The Earth is still turning and it carries me home
to the sunlight of life as I stand here alone
Look a bit closer to the moon for awhile
Wait patiently and it will give you a smile
Just breath in and enjoy all the fresh air
and enjoy the adventure that is standing right there
And there you have it, the final LOST POEM!
Song of the Day: The Entertainer by Billy Joel
Playing on my headphones right now, this is a great song from the "Streetlife Serenader" album. This album definitely has a west coast vibe as part of it, which is funny because Billy Joel is a big New York pride guy. But, when this album came up, he had moved to L.A. to record this album and to try to start again. He eventually became disenchanted by Los Angeles and moved back to New York. All and all, it brought inspiration to his work. Good album, ay?
Well, Video of the Day is below, and I'll see you later : )
It's been a few days since I have written, and that's a few days too long. Though I do think now that Thursdays will be my official day off (and I can't promise I will have access to a computer everyday) but I will write as often as I can. But this weekend has been something of a very interesting weekend, and it really helped me put quite a few things in perspective. The emotional bootcamp really started tonight.
My plans for tomorrow night were cancelled again and it kind of got me down. Then, a few other things got into my head that I'm going through. Recently, I've been having some probems with life and it got triggered tonight. I'm going to be as honest as I can tonight, so if it scares you, you can stop right here. For all others, go on!
My cousin found me in the room I was in really upset. My cousin Bill is an amazing person and I am honored to have him as my cousin and to have him so close to where I go to school (4 hour train ride which isn't too bad honestly). Well, he found me in my room really upset and worried. Call it an anxiety attack, call it depression, call it whatever you want, its life. The good thing about my cousin is that he is honest.
I told him about the problems I was having with some friends and family and just life in general.
He stood there, looked me in the eye, and told me "I'm NOT going to stand here and tell you that I can make all your problems go away. But they DO get better".
I was so stressed, I felt like I wanted to die. I let him know. No, I didn't want to kill myself. I just wanted to disappear for awhile.
He told me "God, I know what it's like to feel lonely. But things WILL get better". He told me to wash up and come down to dinner. So I did.
We had dinner as a family (Him, his wife Jan ((my other amazing cousin)) and I) and looked at a family tree, which is a story in itself, since we have a very interesting history, and then my Cousin Bill and I had a heart to heart.
We talked about friends, family, love and the future. He told me that a friendship is mutual. I told him how sometimes I felt like I was the only one putting effort into friendships and getting closer, and he told me "it takes two". He made me realize that friends don't make others feel like shit and make time for each other, but that also people change too and that sometimes, things are the way they are and I have to keep searching for my place.
We talked about family. If you didn't know, most of my family has passed away, including my mother, and he knows that we don't have a big family. He assured me that he is there for me, and coming from my family, that means a lot.
We talked about fitting in and finding my place. I let him know I have some social problems and fitting in within my generation when I'm a little different. He made me unafraid of being myself and that sometimes it is hard to find friends and people who understand, but to not give up and to remember, I have to be happy and be true to myself.
Then he told me something that I never really heard from a lot of people, but I felt like I needed to here from someone in my family. I never really felt like I had many "hearts to hearts" with my family before, and this was something I sort of needed to here.
He told me that there is a way to recover! To change and to be happier. He told me that I have to have faith and to hope, because things get better, in time. He told me to write down 4 things that I am unsatisfied with and slowly change them a little everyday. He told me that I can find myself.
For the first time, I felt like I was having a "heart to heart" with my family. He told me that I shouldn't have to be afraid to begin again, wheather it be finding a different path of life, joining other things, going other places and trying things out. I'm not gonna say everything here, since some of this is personal and stays between my cousin and I, to make a long story short, I've entered Recovery Mode.
I have decided to face my demons and change myself for the better and concentrate on my well being a little bit more than I have. I'm going to eat healthier, loss weight, get into more things, face my demons, be happier with myself, maybe start again, be happier, not let people get to me, and I AM going to get myself out of thing slump I've been in. I'm going to start being true to me and not let people make standards for me, I'm gonna make my own and I'm going to get better. I'm going to be a better and stronger person.
Its going to take some time to change for the better, and to figure things out, but from this moment on, I'm going to improve myself and figure this out, and right now, I haven't felt stronger in weeks.
Not only did my cousin get me back on track, but tonight I also decided to face one of my biggest demons that has been haunting me for 8 months and I did VERY well! I confronted someone/something that has effected me, and I finally faced it and I turned the tables. I decided to not feel guilty and feel bad for being myself because of certain events that happened earlier this year and, surprisingly, I feel like my wounds are slowly healing. I was not afraid to stand up and say the truth tonight, as blunt as it was, and I feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest tonight, and I felt alive, and tonight, I made a big step in my "recovery". And it just begins here.
I'm going to make sure that, everyday, I get a bit closer to "full recovery". I've decided to be my honest self now and that I'm done feeling hurt and like shit. Of course I will have my bad days, but tonight I will start again and build myself emotionally and physically, to be healthier both mentally and physically, and to get myself to a comfortable happy place. It will take some time, but I have little goals each day. I'm going to focus on being a better and happier person. Not everyone will like who I am, and I have to accept that, but at the same time say "fuck it, I'm moving on".
Who knows how much longer I will be in Columbia, or where I will be in a few months, because I'm a little lost at this point, but at the same time, I can't be afraid to begin again, because I know I can find happiness, and I have faith and hope I will find people I can make happy and that make me happy as well and to find a life I am happy with.
If anyone out there has felt the same way I have (and I know you're out there), don't be afraid to start again. I wish I had someone like my cousin to tell me that in my life earlier, and I may not be the closest to you or may not even really know you, but if you be true to yourself and try to be the best person you can be and find your own happiness, I assure you that you will make progress. I'm not going to say it's instant. It takes time, like everything does, but don't ever be afraid to begin again, because everyone deserves a second chance. Don't let people bring you down or tell you you can't, because no one can tell you what's good for you besides yourself. Don't let some society tell you you have to be a certain way or that you have to be like everyone else, because you DON'T. Be yourself, and you will eventually find that you can love you and others can love you. You might feel like me, lonely, and we all have our own demons and pasts and fears like I do, but don't let anyone tell you it's wrong. But also, don't be afraid to face them either and to improve yourself and begin again, because limiting yourself from living a true life isn't living a life at all. Be who you are, be honest of yourself, and let me be the first to honestly say I love you. To the haters and the phobic and to those who are afraid of others because they are different, I feel sorry for you. Fuck haters. No one deserves to be treated like dirt. I've found my new path tonight that I'm ready to go down, wheather with some people or alone. I'm not afraid to go down it and I will recover. This is TRUELY (I hope) the beginning of the rest of my life.
I know this entry has been sort of self centered but I felt like I had to say something and let people know. This is who I am! Take it or leave it. : )
Once I get home (I'm in Grand Rapids now with my cousins), I will be post the final part of THE LOST POEMS, and continue with other things. But for tonight, think about yourself and look in the mirror and find your real happiness. Well, at least begin.
I have begun my Recovery process, and I'm very optomistic about my life right now, and I hope everyone can feel a little bit of love and strength like I did tonight. Don't forget to check out the Video of the Day, and I'll catch you all later : )
SONG OF THE DAY: Not Afraid by Eminem
Can you guess why?? Happens to be the Video of the Day too by the way!
Well, still under the weather today : ( Didn't get to sleep til about six a.m. last night. I had to skip my class at 8:30am because with the lack of sleep along with the coughing and runny nose and just feeling kind of crappy, I don't think I would have made it.
Chilled around the apartment and went to Caribou for a bit (Caribou is a coffee place if ya'll didn't know) and read and then went to my Arabic tutor and then that's as exciting as my day got today.
But...what was exciting was late last night!
The Boss
That's right...The Boss was on Jimmy Fallon last night...the man himself. Mr. Bruce Springsteen!!! And boy was it a show.
He appeared to play a song with Fallon, who was dressed up as Neil Young, which was hilarious. I'm sure you can find it on Youtube, it's worth a watch.
Bruce was there to promote both his new box set of "Darkness On The Edge Of Town", filled with demos, unreleased songs from the sessions, the documentary about the recording/writing process, a notebook filled with hand written notes from the Boss himself, and he was also there to promote "The Promise", a 2 CD compilation of other unreleased tracks from "Darkness...". Both are now on sale, and I saw that at FYE if you buy "The Promise", you get a free poster as well, so check it out!
During the interview, Bruce talked about the release and the days he recorded the album. Along with him for the interview was Steven Van Zandt, guitarist for the E-Street Band, and radio host of Little Steven's Underground Garage, which I highly recommend you check out. It is by far my favorite radio show to hit the airwaves. All you New Jerseyians can listen to it on Q104.3 at 10pm-12pm on Sundays, and everyone who doesn't live in NJ (Or have Sirius Radio, which houses it's own Channel for the Underground Garage I believe), check it out online, where their archived shows are. Check it out here: http://www.littlestevensundergroundgarage.com/
Anyway, after the interview, Bruce, Steven, along with keyboardist "Professor" Roy Bittan of the E Street Band, and The Roots, all performed two songs from the new compilations. And what a performance it was!!
He performed "Because The Night" (which was made famous by Patti Smith) and "Save My Love", which was previously unreleased. Check them out! They are worth the watch, and they also happen to be the Video's of the Day. Two videos in one day. Lordy lord.
Being from NJ, this was very exciting to watch. I have the priviledge to be able to see him in concert three times at Giant's Stadium, and boy does he put on a show. This is a concert that everyone should see at least once in their life. His shows have an energy that is so unique and so powerful, that it becomes not only a concert, but an experience.
Being a big Bruce fan, I have all his albums and have been honored to be able to hear them all in their glory. So tonight, I am putting together....
THE BOSS'S MUST LISTEN LIST
I have picked one song from each of his albums that I feel is a must from the album. Feel free to agree or disagree, but I think you should check them out on Youtube when you have the time. I'm sure they are there. So check out these Bruce Springsteen classics and enjoy this list!!
THE BOSS"S MUST LISTEN LIST
1. "Growin' Up"- from Greetings From Asbury Park (1973)
2. "Rosalita (Come Out Tonight)"- from The Wild, The Innocent, and the E-Street Shuffle (1973)
3. "Born To Run"- from Born To Run (1975)
4. "Adam Raised A Cain" - from Darkness On The Edge Of Town (1978)
5. "Crush On You"- from The River (1980)
6. "State Trooper"- from Nebraska (1982)
7. "Dancing In The Dark"- from Born In The USA (1984)
8. "Brilliant Disguise"- from Tunnel of Love (1987)
9. "All Or Nothin' At All"- from Human Touch (1992)
10. "Souls Of The Departed"- from Lucky Town (1992)
11. "The Ghost Of Tom Joad"- from The Ghost Of Tom Joad (1995)
12. "Lonesome Day"- from The Rising (2002)
13. "Long Time Comin'"- from Devils and Dust (2005)
14. "Jesse James"- from We Shall Overcome: The Seeger Sessions (2006)
15. "Long Walk Home"- from Magic (2007)
16. "The Wrestler"- from Working On A Dream (2009)
And there you have it folks!! Hope you enjoy the list. Check the songs out! I'm sure you can find them on youtube.
Obviously, this blog post goes out to The Boss, Bruce Springsteen, and also the the legendary E-Street Band. But now, it's time for:
THE LOST POEMS part 2!!
I have a feeling I was listening to some of Bruce's more western songs when I was writing this. It seems inspired by them. That and westerns in general. Maybe even Billy Joel's "The Ballad of Billy The Kid". But here you go, the second lost poem!
Ol' Bobby by Dave Karp
Bobby walked around the streets at night with a .32 in his hand promised he'd do justice to whoever fouled the land
An outlaw, he was, of our own time doin' deeds no one dared to do Vigilante of this broken town lookin' out for me and you
One day, Bobby came across a man who'd gotten away with a crime A man who killed a dozen men and never served his time
Bobby pulled the trigger as fast as lightning the man had nothing he could do He knew this always happens when Ol' Bobby catches you
Yes, that was Bobby and his taste of justice Now Bobby is dead and gone The town waits quietly for a time another hero will come along
and that's THE LOST POEMS part 2. The final poem will be listed tomorrow!
Song of the Day: "Outlaw Pete" by Bruce Springsteen
Check out this 8 minute epic. It's amazing!! BBBBRRRRUUUUCCCCEEEE
Well, that's all I have for now. I have dinner and a night class to get to!! Don't forget to check out the Video(s) of the day below, which are the Bruce performances I talked about earlier from Late Night With Jimmy Fallon! I'll "meet you furthur along up the road"...
Today was very chill, mostly because I'm sick : ( and my Arabic class got cancelled today and I didn't feel well enough to go to my tutor for writing. I fell asleep around 11:45 last night on my bed and woke up at around 5:45 in the morning today, my throat sore as ever, I had a hard time going back to sleep so I basically sat in bed until 9:00ish and then got myself into my typical morning routine.
I had lunch at the new Wings Stop that just opened on campus with a few of my friends from class. It was actually really peaceful and fun! After, I took a walk around campus to clear my mind a little and ended up going home for a nap.
Around 4, after a nap, I got to hang out with my good friend, Gladys, which was really fun. I hadn't really hung out with her in awhile besides in class because of our busy schedules but today we both had some free time. It was a good time for all. On our adventures to various record stores and such (I bought a few CDs today...U2 and Aerosmith), we stopped at Chase Bank (or as I like to call it because of the book I'm reading now, "Catch Me If You Can", Chase Manhattan Bank, which is it's old name).
Now, yes, I do bank at Chase Manhattan Bank and, I'm not going to lie, they are convenient. They have branches all over Chicago, the staff is nice (most of the time) and they have a pretty cool reward system (sort of..I'll get to that) but I have a few...uh...problems with the bank. And now, I will launch myself into a segment today called...
"THE PROBLEM WITH...."
Today's topic is, of course, Chase Bank. In these sections, which will come up occasionally, I will list three things about something that has, for lack of better words, made me flip a shit. Sort of. You'll see. So here we go...
The Problem With Chase Bank Is... 1. The Ultimate Rewards Program....In the beginning since I opened up my account some three years back, I always had the Chase Rewards Program. It was kind of cool. You'd rack of points with purchases that you have made over time and would be able to rack up points to get stuff like free movie tickets, traveling supplies, and even cash back. And much more. So about 4 months or so back, I realized, without being told at all, that the program had switched to something called Chase Ultimate Rewards. Soon after, I found out that ALL the points I racked up in the last three years (and there were A LOT) were gone, and that now it's harder to get points. And then I found out that I was PAYING to get this point system. WHAT THE HELL!!!??? Well, I soon found out that I was also paying for the old program. Why wasn't I ever told?? Beats my meat. So this ticked me off at the time, though now I'm sort of over it. If you get an account there, make sure you ask them about the program, and remember to ask HOW MUCH IT IS! 2. No Blank Checks??....I ran out of checks recently and had to pay my rent and make a deposit to a trip I'm taking to Argentina in the spring. The day I went to the bank to order more checks, the branch had just caught someone passing fraudulent checks...and the police were on the scene. Things started getting heavy and loud in there, so I didn't spend too much time there. But they said I couldn't order checks that day because of it. So I ask for a blank check, because I know banks do that for you. And the teller told me they don't do blank checks....WHAT.THE.HELL. I was always told you could do blank checks at banks. Who doesn't do blank checks?!? LLLLLAAAAMMMMMEEEE. 3. Check Security....Today, I was at the bank with Gladys and, what the hell, I tried again asking for a blank check. And this time, they said they would give me a courtesy check....Well, that's nice. One week later. Well I started to like that branch a little more. Then they said all I needed was an ID. I gave them my driver's license and my debit card, and after a very quick glance and a minute later, a blank check was handed to me. I thanked her and walked out of the branch, check in hand....Now, I don't want to sound like I'm complaining, because I need that check...but let's just say I had anyone's credit card and a fake ID I made for this person's credit card. I could have gotten the check, wrote out an amount, cashed it, and would be on my way to another city to do the same again and be a fraud. Maybe because I'm reading "Catch Me If You Can" and getting into (which is ironic that I'm talking about this because Chase Manhattan was where Frank W. Abagnale Jr. started his criminal career in "Catch Me If You Can" and we are talking about checks here) or maybe I'm being dumb. But I don't know...shouldn't there be a little bit more security than that?? Hell, I DON'T KNOW!!
And that concludes THE PROBLEM WITH for today.
I don't have that much more time to type here, so tomorrow I will have THE LOST POEMS part 2 for ya'll.
Today's Song of the Day: "Piano Man" by Billy Joel
As I type, I am listening to the "Piano Man" album by him, and the title track always is a good listen. I pray to God that you know this song, but if you don't (and you should), CHECK IT OUT! It also happens to be the Video of the Day, so check it out below!! That's all for now. Until tomorrow my friends, PEACE AND LOVE!!
Well, well, well. It's that time of year again. The snow will be coming, the air is cool, the lights are shining down the city streets, and I have a sore throat. Yes, it's almost a new year. And with another new year comes new New Years Resolutions (honestly, who actually keeps them?). Alas, I'm going to try to keep one this new year. What is that resolution, you ask?.....yup...you guessed it. It's keeping a new blog and sticking with it.
I want to make something bigger than a blog which might be the reason I don't keep them all the time, so wheather or not I make this a bigger thing, a "Whole World" if I may, is yet to be determined. But, right now, let's live in the moment.
What is this blog about. Well, it's going to be about a lot of things actually, and in due time you will understand the name "21st Century American Reject".
I want this blog to be able to bring you something to the table, wheather it be discussion, "help", relatable content, etc. Maybe some of you feel alone at times (I can relate), maybe you like to listen to other's stories, maybe you just like reading shit. Well, hopefully I can bring something for you to read. So, welcome.
Making "Welcome to My Blog" sections have never really worked out for me in general, so I'm just gonna jump into it and get this ball rolling. (by the way, Hi, i'm Dave Karp, I write, love music, love art, and if I told you everything, I'd be here for years, so let's just get on with it)
New York City Skyline
Recently, I've been listening to a lot of Billy Joel, and it's made me realize how I miss New York City. Living ten miles outside of Times Square in NJ most of my life, I've come to enjoy the many visits and adventures I have had there. Not that I don't love Chicago, because I do, but it just doesn't have that New York City vibe I am in love with. I remember always going into the city during high school to just get away, catch a broadway show, and walk around.
One building that always stood out to me was the Marriott Marquis on Broadway and 45th, in the heart of Times Sqaure. When you walk in from the street, you have two choices...take the elevator up to the lobby or take the escalators. I always took the escalators. I would snake up for about seven floors and eventually get to the lobby. Walking into the middle of the lobby and looking up, you would see hundreds of rooms surrounding the building and the ceiling some fifty odd stories over you. Around you in the lobby is a big lounge with about a hundred or so couches, a bar, a Starbucks (errr), and the concierge. After taking in the view, I'd hop on the elevators and ride them ALL THE WAY UP to the top floor. The fun thing about this was that it was one of those elevators that you could see out of and as I rode it up, I'd pass floors and floors, and I could look down to the lobby below. The people all look like ants from up there. When you get to the top, and go to a certain part of the floor, you can see outside to the city below you. Definitely a view worth looking at.
I miss that hotel and being able to see that lobby. The only "bad" experience I had in there was when a former friend of mine from high school and I took the stairs all the way up. We must of triggered some alarm because security was waiting for us at the top and we were escorted out. Oh well, it was fun to climb the stairs.
And now, time for the first round of "THE LOST POEMS".
These poems were written by me the last week in March of this year when I was going through a rough point in my life. They are actually really upbeat, story telling poems, but when I pulled them out, I thought to myself "I remember when I wrote these...that week sucked". Well, I'm going to release them to the world here on this blog. There are three in all (one I destroyed because, at the time it was really personal to me and brought up bad memories so I ripped it up and got rid of it. Kind of wish I hadn't.) This first one is very child like and is about my awesome cat, Domino. It's the one I like the least, so I'll release it first. I don't know if there is any logic in that, but it's just the way I do this. So this will be part 1. Poem 1. And don't you dare try to steal these from me!!! Not only did I get them copyrighted, but if I find out anyone steals them, I will personally rip your heart out with a rusty fork, eat it, and force myself to vomit the heart back up in your mouth... : ) Just...no stealing.
Domino by David Karp
Domino was the wisest of them all It didn't matter that he was so small He went on adventures where the danger was real He would sit by your side for all of your meals
This frolicy feline is loving and kind Love and adventure fills up his mind He lies there, so happy, wagging his tail This little friend of mine knows not how to fail
And that concludes Poem 1 of THE LOST POEMS
Song of the Day: "New York State of Mind" by Billy Joel
Why? Well, I've been missing The Big Apple a bit recently, and this song always reminds me of it. DUH. Not to mention, Billy Joel is the man. I've been listening to his second album, "Piano Man" a lot recently. It's really a good album.
Well, that's all I got for now. Make sure to catch the Video of the Day at the bottom, and I will see you all tomorrow. Welcome!!
